Sitting by his bedside – watching
His labored breaths – my husband –
Beloved – enduring battered life –
Sleep his only respite – temporary –
Waking alone at night – struggling –
Pulling – lifting – reaching up
With all his might
Tears roll down my cheeks –
Unrestrained groaning – then my plea –
Any time – LORD – You may say
Come up here with Me today –
But grant my husband life abundant
Here with me – I trust You – LORD –
That all is right
By Your stripes we were healed – LORD –
We are the righteousness of God
In Christ – My heart breaks – LORD –
To watch my precious husband fight
To breathe – to speak – to swallow food –
Please hear me as I pray
With all my might
His days are scrolling – my husband
Longs for You – Jesus – LORD –
He waits each day to hear Your call –
Come up here with Me – Johannes –
But not today – still waiting here –
With me – LORD – Show me
That all is right
Another day brings change again –
Alertness – strength – swallowing too –
What is this – Amazed I see –
My husband rallies once again –
You heard me – LORD – it seems –
Raise me up to meet the challenge –
I need Your might
Thank you for peace and quiet rest
Knowing You care – knowing
You reign and nothing’s too hard
For you – LORD – Champion –
Ruler of day and night – Keeper
Of the New Covenant – showing me
That all is right
By Carol Ann Hoel © April 25, 2012
1 Peter 2:24 – The Bible – (KJV) – Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 – The Bible (KJV) – Rejoice evermore. Pray without ceasing. In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.
2 Corinthians 5:21 – The Bible – (KJV) – For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him.
What a powerful testimony to the Love of God in you Carol Ann. I think this is one of the most heart-breaking poems you’ve written. Thank you for sharing it with us and for being the beautiful Christian woman you are.
Thank you for your prayers, Elizabeth. God hears and answers. I live one day at a time. I am thankful for the blessings of today. My prayers will go up again tomorrow according to my hubby’s needs, and my own, and those of others I know about. May God bless you richly and heal your ears and anything connected to the hearing loss you’ve experienced. Blessings to you, dear friend…
Awesome! What a testimony you are building through all this.
Thank you for your encouraging message. I am swept along in this season of life. If a testimony develops, I give glory to God for it. He is building huge appreciation of His Majesty in me. When our need is GREAT, our God is GREATER. Blessings to you, Angie…
What an emotional ride. I am gald you recognize the gift of the really good days. You’re right – God does care and you are not alone.
Thank you for stopping by, Janna. I appreciate your comment. It is a ride on the wild side. I am thankful for the good days and for strength for the difficult days. Blessings to you, Janna…
Standing firm in the confidence of a daughter of God. you are well enfolded, my dear, as is your dear Johannes. All shall be well and right. There may be times of sadness, and pain, an anxiety – but you can rest in God’s arms and know true, everlasting JOY!
My prayers are with you.
Thank you, Paula. You are so sweet to bless me with kind words whenever you stop by. Resting in God’s arms. I like that phrase. I am resting in His arms of love and grace. He is my rest and my hope of a bright future. Blessings to you…
This is lovely, Carol Ann. You describe everything so well, drawing us into the room with you. Hugs!
You express perfectly what I tried to do, to draw you into the room with me. I feel isolated sometimes from being confined most of the time to this apartment, except for shopping for a few hours a week, always hurrying in to get back in time to attend properly to my hubby. Your special efforts are very much appreciated, Patti. Blessings to you…
God bless you forever. it hurts so much to see a loved one suffering. i am so happy that God is forever with you, holding you in peace and courage.
your courage is amazing carol.
love and hugs.
My God is amazing. He meets our every need, both of physical provision and of love and comfort. Thank you for your expression of compassion, Trisha. I appreciate you very much. Blessings to you…
God is amazing, so are you my dear, sweet friend.
Beautiful testimony to our Father, Carol Ann. God is so great. Blessings to you and Johannes always.
Thank you, Bonnie. Our Father God provides all we need. Thank you for the blessings you offer. May you be blessed, too. May all your needs be lavishly provided. Thanks for stopping by.
I marvel at your strength and wisdom, my friend. I hope there will be many more good days for you and your husband,
Thank you for the kind words, Marilynn. I appreciate your stopping by. Blessings to you…
I can feel your pain and passion in your poem, Carol Ann.
All will be right.
Thank you, Christine. Yes, I too, believe that all will be right. Blessings to you…