Born into your kingdom as a child –
Not a preacher’s kid – not
A deacon’s kid – but a
Child belonging to a
Family – one not
Attending church –
One not knowing
The Bible and
Not interested
In my life
With God
Receiving no instruction from home –
But rather indifference or
Sometimes something else –
Disapproval – I was
On my Own –
To learn Your ways –
One thing I knew –
Obeying you
Meant nothing
Bad would ever
Happen to me
My bond with You grew strong –
Troubles came – You saw
Me through – Still I
Believed that nothing
REALLY BAD could
Touch me – Your child –
Then it happened –
Something REALLY
BAD broke me –
Why – I asked –
Why me
Some people say they cannot believe
In a God who allows bad things – but
I knew You – Jesus –
I knew Your love –
How could I
Turn away –
I confronted
You with anger –
I accused You –
Of betrayal –
I wept
Patiently you dealt with me as a loving
Father – as my Comforter You
Never left me though
I hurt You with my
Fury – You understood –
You showed me love
And mercy – You
Healed my broken
Heart – LORD –
You mended me –
You taught me
Thank you LORD
By Carol Ann Hoel © June 15, 2011
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Psalm 23:4 – The Bible (KJV) – Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
John 16:33 – The Bible (KJV) – These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.
Romans 5:1-5 – The Bible (KJV) -Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ: By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope: And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.
Job 2:9-10 – The Bible (KJV) – Then said his wife unto him, Dost thou still retain thine integrity? Curse God, and die. But he said unto her, Thou speakest as one of the foolish women speaketh. What? shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall we not receive evil? In all this did not Job sin with his lips.
This. is. breathtaking.
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Thank you for stopping by and leaving your encouraging comment. Blessings to you…
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Such a beautiful testimony. “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” Matthew 5:16 You shine, Carol, you shine. I know your Father is pleased.
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Thank you, Patti. I appreciate your sweet words. Thank you for stopping by. Blessings to you…
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mind blowing, keep it up.
you rock.
😉
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Thank you, Jingle. I appreciate your visit and your comment. Blessings to you…
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“Some people say that they cannot believe in a God that allows bad things….” Besides all the theology about the life and death of Jesus and His role of Savior and Redeemer, there is one aspect that seems overlooked . The problem of unmerited suffering is what drives many to cut any relationship with God. But Jesus suffered as well. How unjust or unmerited was His suffering? There is a lesson there too: God knows our suffering.
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You have made an excellent point, Carl. Thank you for your insightful comment. Thank you for your visit and your comment. Blessings to you…
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This poem was amazing. Your faith and devotion are truly inspiring. I’m glad you found God and that he is using you to spread his word and be a light of hope in a sometimes too-depressing world.
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yup
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Thank you for stopping by Janna and for your kind and encouraging comment. I appreciate you very much. You are blessed. More blessings to you…
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oh lean lean lean! i luv the lean u do into God. thank u for sharing. keep on.
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Thank you for encouraging me, Sana. I appreciate your visit and your kind comment. Yes, I lean. I simply must. He is the only one strong enough for anyone’s leaning, and I praise Him for his faithfulness. Blessings to you…
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I too can see my reflection in your poem.
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Yes, I think everyone in our fallen world experiences trouble. Alone I would have never risen above it. With Jesus, my life is full and flourishing, and my outlook is always draped in God’s mercy and grace.
Thank you for stopping by and leaving your sweet comment. Blessings to you, Trisha.
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Beautiful poem. Definitely something I needed to read today. Thanks for sharing.
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Thank you for stopping by and for your kind comment. I appreciate your taking time to visit. Blessings to you…
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Lovely as always! (I love Psalm 23.)
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Thank you, Laura. I appreciate your taking time to stop by and for your kind comment. Blessings to you…
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Been there and done that (anger at God) Carol Ann. Very well written!
I know there will be many who may not post a reply, but will be blessed
beyond measure by your words. Thanks for sharing them with us.
Elizabeth
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Thank you for your encouraging comment. I appreciate your taking time to stop by. It took me some time to realize I was wrong about everything, but it didn’t take me long to be sorry for ranting at Jesus, because He stayed by me and comforted me even while I was ranting. Blessings to you, Elizabeth…
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A new look here for you. I like it. 🙂
I was caught by your words:
“You showed me love
And mercy – You
Healed my broken
Heart – LORD –
You mended me…”
This resonated because it reminded me of “something really bad” that happened to me years ago and has had a lasting effect on my life. Without His love and mercy and mending I couldn’t have carried on.
Thanks for this, Carol Ann, and blessings to you.
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Thank you for your comment, Carol. Without the love and forgiveness of Jesus, instead of healing, I’d have been left with twisted emotional scars. God takes the bad things that happens to us and uses them to create in us the image of His Son. Who but our God could turn the effects of evil into good? Blessings to you…
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An intimate poem, Carol Ann. Well done and thanks for sharing it.
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Thank you for reading and commenting. I appreciate your visits, Jamie. Enjoy the weekend. Blessings to you…
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